Feeling Yourself!

Ok, I will admit it....I started FEELING MYSELF! I had way too much new found confidence. I was getting men approaching me, people were telling me how "skinny" I look. I know I am 5'10...but I am not sure how a 200lb woman can look skinny, but hell...I took it and ran with it! Like a bat out of hell. One must remember, it had been many years since I had any kind of attention like I was getting now. And being that I live in the South now...it is a whole different ball game out here. Now I was "thick" instead of the everyday fat girl! I was like, "Ok...I see you Krystle! Doing your thing!"

Well I had to shake myself today...and say "You still have more to lose girl, don't stop just because you got a few compliments."

Truth of the matter is...compliments or not, I still was not where I wanted to be as it pertains to sizes I wanted to be in. I am happy that I can go to Target and find stuff now, but I want to find it in a 9 or 11 not a 15 or 17. So I need to refocus and fast! I have to remember why I started this journey...not for some compliments and a few cat calls...FOR ME! I started this in order to get myself back, feel good in my skin and hell wear a bathing suit in the summer and some shorts!

I am happy to report that I have been wearing tanktops the last few weeks without feel self-conscious....now the next step is being able to wear shorts without look like I have THUNDER thighs. Now don't get me wrong I don't want to look like Olive Oil either...but I need to lose at least another 30lbs and drop about 2 more pant sizes before I feel like I am back to me....

Alright Krystle....get it together mama! You got this and you need to get it by the end of December. No more changing my mini-goal dates and rewards! I have come too far to stop now!

The Beach Body Challenge

I am pretty excited today because I will be starting the The Beach Body Challenge! It is a challenge that is open to teambeachbody.com members and coaches alike to get healthier and get healthy and fit. The grand prize is $100,000 for the best transformation and transformation story! I SO want this! It gives me about 9 months to hit my ultimate goal. This is such a huge incentive for me to finish what I have started because I know that this is something that is in my reach to achieve, and an awesome way to share my story with others.

So in my head all I am doing is the work, because I am already claiming the victory! Whether I win the grand prize or not...I have ME back! And that is what means the most to me! I feel like I will truly be a "product of the product" and people can see that Beach Body does work and they stand by their programs and products. What other company is giving away money on a daily basis to get people to work out? Ummm none of them!

So here I go world! Wish me luck! And God willing....this will be MINE!

For more info on the challenge go to www.beachbodycoach.com/brockinbody to sign up for your free account and http://www.teambeachbody.com/connect/beachbody-challenge to "commit to be fit"

Good Morning friends! I had an awesome weekend in the respect that I went shopping for a maxi dress, and after trying on different dresses and not liking the way anything fit...I found a winner...and it was a LARGE!!! Not a 2x or 3x, but a large! Who knew that I could fit into that size. It had been so long that I didn't even attempt to go to that side of the store and then thought I would try it on as a gauge of how close I was. I was so ecited, I could hardly contain myself.

I think more than anything it made me realize how hard I am on myself, and how I need not be. I mean yes, I still have some weight to go and I will get there by the end of this year...but I don't have to beat myself up for not being there already, or for what I "can't wear" I wore that dress with no sweater over it...and proud! It was an amazing feeling. Because I think I finally saw what a difference a new outfit can make in your confidence and your motivation to keep going! I can do this, I will do it and I am taking as many people with me as possible.

Need to Be Just As Strong For Myself

Well I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I am in one heck of a funk for the past couple weeks in the sense of my own personal development. My workouts have been sporadic, and my eating has been the same. The only good thing is, I haven't gained any weight. I am just feeling "blah" for whatever reason.

I don't know if it is that feeling of being "almost there" and wanting it to be over already. Or if it is the compliments I am getting and feel like "I would be ok if I was this same weight" Either way, I know that in my heart, I am not 100% happy with where I am now, and know that I need to get off my ass and keep pressing on.

I totally think this is the point that I was worried about in the beginning of my journey....that point of wanting to just stop for a while, stop logging, stop working out, stop caring...if even it was for a moment. But I CANNOT!!! I have way too many people counting on me to prove that this can be done. I am not Super Woman and just have to be a real person, with real feelings, doubts and insecurties.

Prime example, I could look in the mirror a month ago, and be so proud of my progress. Now, I look at the same reflection and see that my stomach isn't flat enough, my thighs are not small enough, I still can't wear a tanktop or shorts. Very weird feeling. But I may just need to sit back and reflect on how far I have come. I think it is so much more the metal aspect of all of this more than anything.

I WILL get over this! This too shall pass and I am going to come stronger than before! I HAVE to do this for me...I have to do this FOR ME!

Motivation for the Unmotivated

Now let me be the first person to be honest about this...I get unmotivated from time to time. I credit it to being a full time worker, mommy, household manager, business owner, friend, daughter, and everything else that happens in life. Do I come home some days and say, "I just want to put on some comfy pajamas and go to bed until tomorrow!" You bet I do, or have a mommy moment where I want to scream, pull my hair out and contemplate running away to some tropical island with no phone, email, kids or people at all!? God yes! But at the same time, I just have to keep reminding myself that I have one chance at life and I owe it to myself to be the best I can possibly be and also be happy while I am doing it!

If you need to take a few days off to regroup yourself, get your life in order....do it! There is no need to burn yourself out. It makes you so unproductive when you get to the point of wanting to just fall out. Your workouts will suck, you will not eat well, and you lose all reason to be motivated. Life is funny in this way....I think the average person spends more time "picking themselves up off the ground" than actually basking in the sunlight and enjoying the things that we love the most. Now I am not saying everyone is going to fall in love with working out, but most people who do it regularly enough will have to admit that there is an amazing feeling you get after KILLING and workout! It is the moment where the scale or the measurement tape doesn't matter, the moment that you look in the mirror with sweat dripping from everywhere and you say, "I am a BEAST" you may not say that aloud, but you are thinking it for sure :)

So what I say to those who have those lethargic kind of F it days....pick yourself up, strap on those workout clothes, make that salad and get to work! You will be glad you did, not just because you are burning calories, but because you are making time for yourself! In life we spend so much time doing things for everyone else. Taking that little bit of time for yourself is so crucial to keeping yourseld sane! So what are you waiting for?! MOVE!