Monday, September 12, 2011

Feeling Yourself!

Ok, I will admit it....I started FEELING MYSELF! I had way too much new found confidence. I was getting men approaching me, people were telling me how "skinny" I look. I know I am 5'10...but I am not sure how a 200lb woman can look skinny, but hell...I took it and ran with it! Like a bat out of hell. One must remember, it had been many years since I had any kind of attention like I was getting now. And being that I live in the South now...it is a whole different ball game out here. Now I was "thick" instead of the everyday fat girl! I was like, "Ok...I see you Krystle! Doing your thing!"

Well I had to shake myself today...and say "You still have more to lose girl, don't stop just because you got a few compliments."

Truth of the matter is...compliments or not, I still was not where I wanted to be as it pertains to sizes I wanted to be in. I am happy that I can go to Target and find stuff now, but I want to find it in a 9 or 11 not a 15 or 17. So I need to refocus and fast! I have to remember why I started this journey...not for some compliments and a few cat calls...FOR ME! I started this in order to get myself back, feel good in my skin and hell wear a bathing suit in the summer and some shorts!

I am happy to report that I have been wearing tanktops the last few weeks without feel self-conscious....now the next step is being able to wear shorts without look like I have THUNDER thighs. Now don't get me wrong I don't want to look like Olive Oil either...but I need to lose at least another 30lbs and drop about 2 more pant sizes before I feel like I am back to me....

Alright Krystle....get it together mama! You got this and you need to get it by the end of December. No more changing my mini-goal dates and rewards! I have come too far to stop now!

3 comments:

  1. I know where you are coming from. I have pics of me last summer in shorts - and OMG. But I wore the same shorts this summer and they are looser (thank god) and I can look at myself in the mirror wearing them and not cringe. Such a great feeling. Now on to the bathing suit. I vow to myself that next summer I will be prancing all around wearing one and feel great! You can do it! I mean look at how far you have come already!!

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  2. hey girl, you have accomplished alot, and so no problem with celebrating a bit. I know you will do great!

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  3. Regardless of what you decide, you have come so far and look absolutely amazing. Such an inspiration.

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