Thursday, October 29, 2009

Slowly But Surely.....

So I realized that setting up a daily schedule is really a good idea! In the past 3 days I have had a couple of eating slip ups but nothing too major. I have been preparing and bringing my dinner to work, so I am not tempted to go eat out and 2 days this week I have done a 2 mile walk with the baby. I didn't even realize that it was two whole miles until I did the same route in the car. I was so proud of dumb as that may sound!

So tomorrow, I have to have to get to the gym for at least 1.5 hours, just so I can get that part of my plan in action.

My doctor's appointment went well, and he gave me a viable option that I may be starting soon. I am not going to tell you all what it is....but it is something that I feel will be a huge help and once I meet my goal weight I will fill you all in. Thank you so much for the support...even a couple of comments every now and then definitely helps.....

Keep me in your prayers!

Friday, October 23, 2009

I Have Simmered Down Now!

Ok so after the bad news that I got about the OptiFast the other day...I am feeling a lot better.

I have a friend that works for a doctor that is going to see what options I have as far as treatment solutions. This same friend also found out that her gym takes my insurance for personal training sessions!!! WHAT?! I am really excited about that, I love this girl seriously...because she herself has lost a lot of weight and knows that feelings and emotions that you go through when you are she has been a huge help to me!

So I have an appointment on Tuesday with him and I am really excited about that. Since I am still going to be on the night shift, I just have to create a more regimented schedule for my days that includes exercise! After I post this blog, I am going to sit down and create a daily schedule for myself, so that I don't have an excuse to not do what I am suppose to do.

Monday, October 26th is the start to a new beginning and I am not going to let anyone or anything stop me..because this is for me!

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

So sad

Ok, so I made all the stuff for the master cleanse and I was jolted to a stop after I spoke with a doctor on the phone. The long and short of it is that the cleanse is good to clean out your system but the fact that the only calorie intake you are getting is from maple is not the healthiest thing nourishment wise.

So I said "Ok, fine!" Then I looked into seeing a doctor about weight management, particularly Optifast. So I was really excited to making the appointment and see the doctor next week. This is until I asked how much the cost for the shakes are and it comes up to $150.00 a week! Really?! I cannot afford that! So this of course, makes me completely discouraged. I just feel like everytime I plan to do something to change how I look and/or feel, I get knocked 10 steps back. Just like now, I have to stay on the night shift (5pm-2am) so it completely threw off the schedule that I had set up.

But you know what, I have decided to get back to the gym next week. I am going to go before work and my boyfriend is just going to sacrifice taking care of the baby for one more hour so that I can be healthier. Plain and simple! This is like how I went to Target and as I am looking at it the Plus size section and it is literally mixed in with the Maternity section! WTF?! In my head I was thinking of it like Target saying, "Are you pregnant or just fat?!" It just burned me up and reminded me of how much I hate shopping....and I can't do that anymore.

I gotta take control and just say "When life gives you lemons, make lemonade."

I will check back in soon and let everyone know whats going on. But PERSERVERANCE is the word for the day.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Starting the Master Cleanse Tomorrow

Ok, so I start the master cleanse tomorrow morning!

I still haven't decided if I want to do 3 days or the full 10...I feel like it is really going to depend on how much I can mentally take it. But I do know that after 3 days, your intestinal track is completely cleaned out and then I would have to do raw fruits and veggies for a couple of days. Which wouldn't be that bad. However, if I do the 10 days I would have to drink pure orange juice on day 11 and broth on day 12. So it is really going to be mind over matter. So for the embarrasing part:

Right Arm-17
Left Arm-16
Waist-44(So ridiculous)
Left Thigh-28
Right Thigh-30

It is possible that they are a little off...but I am pretty sure that this still means that I am too big.

My goal weight is 166...but I will shoot for 175. I am giving myself until June 1, 2010 to lose at least 50lbs. I this is a big number but I will still be taking it day by day. I also know that I may lose more inches than weight a certain point.

There is one way I am looking at it....the way my body type is (larger bones), my ancestry (All my aunts on my mom's father's side are bulit like Queen Latifah). I will never be a size 4 and I am not trying to be.

So wish me luck blog fam! I will be back tomorrow to let you know how the cleanse is going.

Friday, October 16, 2009

New Beginning

Ok, so my girl Genie started one of these for her weight loss plan a couple of days ago and she has totally inspired me.

Anyways, with that being said I am going to air out my stuff too....because I know that I am going to need the support. Long story short...Im a fat ass right now! I use to weight about 100lbs less 6 years ago and it is tearing me a part to look in the mirror and see something and someone that I am not happy with. So I have decided that I need to take control of the situation.

I started gaining weight when I left for college. I started working more, later hours, 18 units a semester and I was homesick. So I turned to eating and not taking care of myself. Gradually, I just got bigger, bigger and bigger. And now I am at a point where it is embarrassing to hang around some of my friends, because I don't want to be looked at as "the fat girl" I already stick out, I am 5'10" JESUS.

I want to be able to play around with my son and not get winded, I want to play volleyball and softball again. I don't think there is anything worse than knowing that I use to be a serious athlete, and now I couldn't run around a track if you paid me!

Right now I am 5"10 and 260lbs. And I know some of you may read this and not believe this...but let me be the first to tell you that the color black is a fat girls best friend! :) But all jokes aside I am moving to Atlanta soon and when I come back to visit California for my good friend Genie's wedding I want to look like the "new and improved" old me! For some of you who are new to knowing me, you have no idea what I use to look like...but I will make sure to post old pictures.

My official start date is October 26, 2009 (This is when my work shift is going to change to days instead of the 5pm-2am I am doing now)

I feel like this will be the easiest way for me to form a schedule when I am working in the day.

So all I need is your love, support and prayers because I know it is not going to be easy and I need to take action now. I owe it to myself and my son to be a healthy, happy, and confident woman. Please follow me on my journey, and in the process I hope to inspire and encourage other women out there to take control of their lives.

"I Can Do All Things Through Christ Who Strengthens me" Phil 4:13