Wednesday, October 21, 2009

So sad

Ok, so I made all the stuff for the master cleanse and I was jolted to a stop after I spoke with a doctor on the phone. The long and short of it is that the cleanse is good to clean out your system but the fact that the only calorie intake you are getting is from maple is not the healthiest thing nourishment wise.

So I said "Ok, fine!" Then I looked into seeing a doctor about weight management, particularly Optifast. So I was really excited to making the appointment and see the doctor next week. This is until I asked how much the cost for the shakes are and it comes up to $150.00 a week! Really?! I cannot afford that! So this of course, makes me completely discouraged. I just feel like everytime I plan to do something to change how I look and/or feel, I get knocked 10 steps back. Just like now, I have to stay on the night shift (5pm-2am) so it completely threw off the schedule that I had set up.

But you know what, I have decided to get back to the gym next week. I am going to go before work and my boyfriend is just going to sacrifice taking care of the baby for one more hour so that I can be healthier. Plain and simple! This is like how I went to Target and as I am looking at it the Plus size section and it is literally mixed in with the Maternity section! WTF?! In my head I was thinking of it like Target saying, "Are you pregnant or just fat?!" It just burned me up and reminded me of how much I hate shopping....and I can't do that anymore.

I gotta take control and just say "When life gives you lemons, make lemonade."

I will check back in soon and let everyone know whats going on. But PERSERVERANCE is the word for the day.


  1. Hang in there!!! Remember think positive, "The mind is everything, what you think you become." ~Buddah

    There are a lot of things that you can do on your own to aid in your weight loss journey that wont cost you $150 per week. You can actually make your own shakes, buy your own supplements at Target, Walmart, etc for under $10 each such as Flaxseed oil, Chromium, Borage oil, etc.

    Email me and I will help you for FREE! I can give you references to people that I have helped to lose weight at zero cost. Not only did they lose the weight but the are keeping it off :-)

  2. Hang in there, it is all a mind thing! You can do it girl, we can encourage eachother! Hey when your friend above gives that info about the supplements, please share, or better yet blog about it :) Check out my new blog, you and others inspired me to create one myself to keep me accountable. TTYL!