Tuesday, November 24, 2009

2 Weeks down

So after the second week I am still feeling good. But I did not have as much restraint as I would hae liked to have. Needless to say I have had a couple of slip ups last weekend. Like I said, the weekends are always the hardest because those are my off days and I am running around a lot more often. But that is no excuse....I still am coming in at a total weight loss so far of 9lbs...However, I need to kick it up a notch. I have decided that I am not going to weigh myself again until December 5th. I do not want to be one of those people that obssess over the scale. I will say that I have noticed a difference in how my pants are fitting. They are a lot looser in the waist!!! Which is wonderful and makes me feel a lot better. Because I know that what I am doing is working.

The 1st week was sooo much easier than the 2nd week which I thought was weird. But I have figured out that it is mentally tougher. Because in your mind you think "Well I have lost 8lbs....whats one cheeseburger, or one soda?" But I know that this is how bad habits start. I am still doing really well at just plain ol turning people down when they offer me food, that I know I should not be eating. And the support that I have been getting is great! So I will keep you all posted about my next weigh in!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

1 Week Down

So after my first week with this 1200 calorie thing...I am feeling great and have lost 6lbs....well 7 because I weighed myself today! I am really excited about it because I know that my hard work is paying off.

I have decided to work out 5 days a week this week instead of 4 and I am going to start using my Core Ryhthms tapes...they are basically doing Latin Dance move and making it into exercise...and it soooo is! You will be sweating after just the first tape. So this will be working my core and the walking will be working my bottom half.

I have defintely found that the weekends are the hardest. These are the days that I have off and I am usually running around and taking my son places i.e. to the park, to get more clothes, or with me shopping. So it was very tempting to stop and get something in a drive-thru but I didn't and I was really excited about that.

It is such a wonderful feeling to know that what you are doing is working...and I so needed this to keep me motivated. Because although you can eat anything you want within reason, there are things that you want to avoid because you know that you will not get full and it defeats the purpose. So it is all about making smarter choices.

I will let you guys know how it is going towards the end of this week. Thank you all for the support, it really keeps me going.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

So it has been a week since I last wrote...but anywho.

I started on the 1200 calorie a day thing Monday and it is Thursday and I am feeling great! The first day was rough, I was getting headaches and feeling like crap...but by day 2 I was fine.

I really feel like the trick is writing down EXACTLY what you eat and planning your day out as far as what you are going to eat. That way if you are on the go with your snack, you have already written down and know what you are putting in your mouth. Also, the trick is definitely to eat every 2 to 3 hours. If it weren't for me doing that, I would have been done! So your body never goes into starving mode...it kind of alerts me when I need to put something in my mouth.

I count every calorie now, as well as my fat grams per day, carbs per day, protein and sodium intake. I got this really great food journal that helps you track all of it, for every meal and then your totals at the end of the day.

I have found that in a day, I don't even make it to 1200 calories, I am usually around 1000-1100...but I am not hungry! Which is amazing to me. So now I see that most of the time I was just overeating when my body did not need it.

I am also walking 2 miles a day.....everyday and the days that I do not get to it...I strap on my workout shoes and do it on the treadmill at work! So for 4 days straight now, I have been walking. Which is seriously a record or something for me! LOL

I definitely have come to some realizations in this process. I know how people always say "You shouldn't deprive yourself when you are on a diet" But honestly there are some cases where you do have to do that...I mean realistically, I cannot eat a piece of banana cream pie or of chocolate cake. I just can't do that, I just can't drink a Dr. Pepper or have an In N Out Double Double...I can't! And there comes a point where you don't want to. Especially, when you are writing everything down that you put in your mouth. Because it is all about accountability. Same thing with have cheat days...they should really call it a cheat meal..because you CANNOT have a whole day of eating everything that you want. What I did was say...."Ok, I am only giving myself one day a month to eat off track, and that does not mean every meal" So I said Thanksgiving, Xmas, and My Birthday. One a month and that is it....and I have to instead of doing 2 miles I am going to have to do 4 or do 2 miles and aerobics. You have to know that in order for you to lose weight, you have to sometimes be a little hard on yourself.

However, I am just speaking for me, what I am having to do in order to lose weight. Everyone is different and different things work for different people. But being accountable and realisitc applies to anyone trying to lose or get healthy. I have a whole fridge full of sodas and I have not touched one. I had a banana cream pie (my fav), birthay cake, my boyfriend made eggs, biscuits, and sausage for breakfast today and I didnt even think twice about eating. A Co-worker brought in cupcakes that she made for us, there was one left here that was suppose to be for me...and I threw it away. Because I knew that that was what I have to do, and need to do...for me! And I am sooooo proud of myself....and that is how I know that I am doing this, FOR ME!

My blood pressure has gone down, which is great! So I can see that this is already starting to work. I am at the point where I am extremely happy that people are supporting me. But at if no one was, I would still be doing this because I feel like I am my biggest coach and I am the star player of my own team.

I am blessed and so happy, and still pray to God each night to keep me focused...and I think this is the way of him telling me that I always had it in me...he is just there just in case I stumble.

Friday, November 6, 2009

1200 Calories? Really?!

As you all know I had a doctor's appointment this past Wednesday.

Well I went to the doctor and she gave me three medication options:Phentermine, Alli, and some other one that I can't remember the name of. Well it turns out that my blood pressure is too high 140/88 to take the Phentermine and the unnamed medication. Which made me a little dissappointed, because I know phentermine works really well. However, she did give me a little grim news about how it can cause heart valve problems up to a year after you are off the medication! So this freaked me out a little bit since heart valve problems run in my family. Long story short, I decided to go with the Alli.

I am waiting to see if my insurance will cover it, since technically I have been diagnosed with obesity. But in the mean time, my doctor let me know that I need to now go on a 1200 calorie a day diet! I must have looked at her like she was crazy!!! Now, I don't know what I normally eat in a day...but something tells me that a double cheeseburger, large fry, and dr. pepper are definitely not going to be in my near future. So she had me buy a food journal, and starting Monday I have to write down what I eat. Her exact words were, "I want to know EVERYTHING that goes into your mouth. If you pick up a grape in the grocery store to eat it, you better right it down!" Yikes!

With all this said, I do like that she is making me be accountable for what I am putting in my mouth. She also wants me to up my working out to 6 days a week! I didn't remember signing up for The Biggest Loser...but ok! Fair enough. Like I said, she is making me accountable and is basically in this thing with me...which I like, because most doctors wouldn't give a shit! They would just prescribe the pills and tell me to be on my marry way.

So goodbye Dr. Pepper, and Banana Cream Pie....goodbye Mickey D's and Pizza Hut.....and HELLO Lean Cuisine and Boneless, Skinless Chicken Breasts!

I have also decided to do some before pictures.....you know like how they do in The Biggest Loser....I think it will be a good reminder of where I know longer want to be. I am also going to do some new measurements...just to make sure that the other ones were not off.

Wish me luck!


Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Doctors Appointments Tomorrow

So I have two very important doctors appointments tomorrow, this will help me get my plan in motion, if all goes well. I am still keeping everyone in suspense, because I want it to be a personal choice for me that I know is the right one.

I went back and looked at old pictures of myself and am so embarrassed that I let myself get to this point. I know when people see me now from high school they are talking shit about how I gained weight. Long story short, I went from being a pretty fit and trained athlete to this. My body fat content back then was around 16-18% which is really good for a woman and I am scared to know what the hell it is now.

With that being said, I am going to put an old picture of me in my wallet and on my mirror at home to remind me of what I can be, and what I should be. I need to pull out all stops at this point to motivate myself!

I will let you all know how the appointments go and just keep me in your prayers and well wishes!